Without Merit

2/19/20

I know it has been a few days but I wanted to be halfway through the book before I made a post. I'm not exactly halfway through, but I'm close enough that it counts. Anyways, this book is so complicated that I'm sure that if it was a soap opera, I would actually watch it because it confuses the crap out of me and I need to know what the heck is going on.  The book even starts out confusing. Like I actually thought our lead character, Merit, was actually dreaming. But it turns out she wasn't and was just mistaken as her twin sister. Then Merit explains how their family isn't all that normal. Everyone has their secrets or secret obsessions. Her father is an unofficial polygamist. Her twin sister likes to date guys who are on their death bed because of what happened with her first boyfriend. Her brother is very OCD. Her mother won't leave the house and lives in the basement. Then there is her step mother who's brother joins their little complicated world and makes it even more complicated. Also it seems like I get so into this book that I forget that there is a world around me. Especially at work. Thank you for that Mrs. Hoover. Anyways, I'm going through this book faster than I would like. I would start a chapter and before I know it, the chapter is almost done. I kind of don't want this to end, but I still love it. So far I love it. I can't really make a decision when I'm not even done with the book. But we all know the truth. I'm a huge Colleen Hoover fan and I'm going to love this book. I even left off in the book where Merit gets mistaken as Honor once again. And then has Sagan, who is mistakenly thought to be Honor's boyfriend that lives with them, call her a name because she tried to kiss him while he thought she was Honor. I wonder how this is all going to work out. Also I hope the whole intro of him kissing Merit in the beginning when he thought she was Honor then gets explained. So many things still need to get explained here. I am hoping things start getting explained soon because I'm impatient. I need to know what is going on.

 2/20/20

 I'm not sure where I left off when explaining this book, but I do have to say that the second half of the book has put me through an emotional rollercoaster. Everything is getting revealed and everyone is working out all of the issues that need working out. And all because Merit put it on paper for everyone to read. The first issue addressed and somewhat fixed is the issue with her OCD brother. They talk about the issue that affected Merit since it had happened. Her brother apologizes and explains why he even did it in the first place. He thought that kissing her would cure him from being gay, but he highly regrets it. Merit and him have a heart to heart and now they can be normal siblings again. Even if Merit keeps getting asked on why she never noticed that her brother was gay. The next issue is that the dog that showed up at their house dies on the way to the vet. Merit is sad that it happened and she isn't sure why. But her thoughts are stopped when she gets answers her brother's phone and realizes that her father is in jail. They all question as to why their father is in jail and when they pick him up they find out they were trying to bury the dog with their owner in the cemetery.  Honor then says a few things on the way home and another issue gets addressed. But before I go into that, I just want to say that Honor really pisses me off. I really hope we see what her deal is with the dying boyfriends and all that. Anyways, they find out that their mother wasn't sick to begin with. Okay, she is sick but not sick in the physical sense. It is more like the mental health region where she gets episodes where she comes up with an illness that is killing her. The father explains a bit more and decides that he needs to walk home. Eventually the siblings, step-uncle, and Sagan all go on an adventure to finish what their father started. Burying the dead dog with it's owner. Honor and Merit are told to keep watch, but Merit is against it even though Sagan insisted. Merit admits that she doesn't want to be alone with Honor and says that she is pretty sure her sister hates her. But they get the heart to heart they needed to have. And that is pretty much where I left off before this post. Now if you want to know how this book ends, please go read the book. Maybe even buy it. I highly recommend this book to all of you and I love it. Even if it takes me on an emotional rollercoaster.