The Redemption of Callie & Kayden

3/23/18

Looks like I finally found my book and I don't like reading it. Why? You ask. Because the issues are very real to the point that you can't hate the characters for being stupid. They all have issues that need to be worked out but they are too scared to. I know that feeling a little too well and maybe that is why I am dragging my feet reading this book now that I got it back into my hands. It's reminding me of all of the issues I still need to work out but don't want to because I'm too scared to know how I will feel afterward. But it still doesn't stop me from being a hypocrite while reading this book and complaining that the characters need to get it together and grow up. That all of this avoiding and keeping quiet is really stupid and it makes me hate them. Yes, it's a good book but the focus on mental health issues hits a little too close to home for me. I might not continue reading just for that very reason. I will try to pull through but I'm not making any promises. This is all just too painful to read. Sorry Bookies, but the dragged out storyline and constant avoiding the truth is really getting on my nerves. Not my kind of book right now. I don't even remember the first book and just reading this book makes me not want to. I got nothing against the author. Like I said before her writing it hitting a little too close to home for my comfort. I'm just going to be like the characters in this book and avoid the feels that this book is creating in me. Basically reading this book just makes me hate myself more because I relate so much. But check it out guys and don't have my negative words hold you back from reading the books. You might actually like it more than me.

3/25/18

 We all know that I was really struggling reading this book and I guess the only solution for me to actually finish the book is to forget all of my chargers at home and read. So no studying, no going on social networks, no dramas, no internet at all. Just spend eight hours reading. Yes, I did have to take breaks because sometimes it was too much. But the book is actually pretty good after you get through all of the avoiding and whiney parts. And I mean whiney as in "I'm broken and don't deserve happiness" because I do that and I hate to be reminded of it. This just makes me hate myself more and that is why I hate the characters. Especially Kayden. Damn you for having similar issues than me. Well, minus the abusive parents because my issues are from inheritance and not beat into me. But reading this book also made me realize that I do have some issues of my own that I need to work out so you can say that after the self-loathing this book put on me, it also taught me a little about myself. A good eye opener to those that do suffer mental health issues and helps those that don't suffer from them understand what we actually go through. Still gets three stars from me because like I said before, I have issues myself that I hate being reminded of. But go check out the series. They really do open up your eyes to things that may not be on the surface because it's something that society drives into us as bad. Or at least that is just how I feel about it. But now I'm going to play catch up on some books that I started to review but never finished because my list at the library is so long.